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what is there to be loved about you?
your nails are bleeding
and you're scared to look her in the eyes
and maybe if you were a little braver, you'd be a little kinder
Sep 30, 2024
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i know that you've never felt wanted
i know it's all you think about
i know that you never feel more like yourself than when you're waiting for someone to text you back
i know you said that i deserve to be here
i know you said that being alive is enough
but be honest
what do i have to do?
Sep 30, 2024
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it is 23h04 and i am putting my forehead to the ground
girl smiling sheepishly in the video
yellow bruise on my forearm
this is the part where she calls me her favourite
"you're still my favourite"
even when your hands are cold
and you can't stop sniffling
and you think i can't tell that you're crying
even when you've had a bad day and you won't look at me over the dinner table
even though part of you closes off when i tell you i love you
Sep 30, 2024
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1) the french word for 'orgasm' is 'la petite mort' which is a) feminine and b) translates directly to 'a little death'
2) that scene in the adventure time miniseries stakes when princess bubblegum is talking to marceline and cradling her face and says 'i care about you... and when you die, i'm gonna be the one to put you in the ground'
3) cannibalism media and the idea that to consume someone, even in harming them, is the way you express love for them, because that's the way you get to be closest for them
3a) yellowjackets
3b) that song breezeblocks by alt j with that lyric 'please don't go ill eat you whole / please don't go i love you so'
3c) freud's distinction btwn mourning and melancholia - where mourning is where you healthily deal with a loss by realizing that the thing you lost is separate from you, and melancholia is the thing where you cant deal with a loss and internalize the thing that you lost, and in becoming that thing refuse to acknowledge its disappearance
4) crush by richard siken, specifically 'because you want die for love, you always have... you're going to die in your best friend's arms' (richard siken is my hero even though he cyber harassed me over email for two days straight)
5) how phoebe bridgers sings 'im gonna kill you but please don't beat me to it'
5a) how i listened to that song over and over after my ex friend died (ex friend and not friend bc they did some messed up stuff so much that i could have wanted to kill them but they beat me to it)
Jan 5, 2024
Top Recs from @selectmorsels
1. company lot by noel miller (kinda like doomscrolling through the tech world but in a funny way. would not play around your parents or coworkers lol)
2. tiny meat gang (used to be with two cohosts, but one is a creep so he's off and it's noel miller hosting interviews, news guy bits, etc. pretty versatile ever since cody ko left. the older episodes with cody are funny too, but i personally don't want to watch them anymore. also would not play around your parents or coworkers)
3. beersos (two hs best friends talk about unhinged shit every episode. also also would not play around anyone tbh)
4. welcome to nightvale (it's a radio show for a fictional town called nightvale. has some fire lines. is overall kooky and odd. often eerie)
anyway, here's a screengrab from the first few seconds of the first episode of company lot
Oct 1, 2024
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i don't want to be lonely
it's not midnight anymore
it hits when i'm high over the ocean
one eye open
the other lost to the black depths
nights like these, it feels like i'll never wake up
won't be returning to the shore
everything i want refuses to come within six metres of me
even when neither of us are real
Sep 30, 2024
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i am good. i am good.
i whisper it on the way home through the snow. i mumble it on the edge of the bed, pupils heavy in my hands.
in another world, you love me and i am good. i am good.
come back to me. mother who remembers you.
i hold you when you sleep, mould my arms around you, leave no room for the cold.
your skin is like wax paper. there are tears at the edges of your eyes.
i am good. i am good. mother who loves you.
you are good to me.
i hold my eyes in my hands, and run them over the edges of your face. even without me, they recognize your temples.
you are good to me.
you come to me in the dark. gentle as ever, speak no words.
there are tears in your eyes and bleeding in your hands and i love you, i love you, i love.
come back to me.
in my dream, you don't answer.
you don't tell me what you've done.
Sep 30, 2024