i hate that i cant forgive. i have 100% confidence in my ability to pretend to forgive and forget, but i dont. it’s strange. i feel like at some point, it has to be my fault. it’s hard to think about because i find it hard to forgive people that i need to. and for stupid shit, too. i know my feelings are valid and i know they don’t things don’t deserve forgiveness, but i don’t want to be like this. i want to change. i want to let go of the fear of letting people in. of letting people be with me. of letting people give me the ability to forgive, for goodness.