thinking lately about how self hatred and misandry together are self reinforcing. when i didn't like myself, men were unkind to me, so i didn't like men, so i internalized men's reaction to my own self hatred as proof of men being bad, and i hated myself for letting men treat me badly.
now that i like myself and i set strong boundaries, men are much kinder and treat me with respect and it makes me like and respect men more and it makes me feel good about myself to be treated well.
