yesterday my girlfriend was sobbing in bed because she felt like a failure. at first, i didn't know what to do. i tried to help her on her tasks, i tried to do the job for her. it didn't work. it didn't seem to be helping at all. so i stopped and laid down next to her. and i held her hand. and we stayed like that for half an hour. then, slowly, carefully, she started to get closer to me. she hugged me. she was still crying but she was now letting me into that pain. and i thought: this is what i want for you. this is what i want for us. to be able to rest with each other.