I’ve had this issue for a while where I’m in this situation where it’s either a group setting and or one on one where I can never seem to say the right things.
I’m sure it’s very common but it’s so frustrating! Like no matter how hard I try everything that leaves my mouth seems to come from a place of trying to draw a reaction instead of a thought. It’s my mouth being evil and talking for me.
I feel it comes out most in settings where there is a new person or someone cool but you can’t address them as you are in a group. Whether that be someone who you don’t know much about but are curious about, or someone you have once had a good conversation with but now are burdened to accomodate smaller conversation bursts and light quips because groups are to share conversations not really divide into multiple?
I dunno maybe it’s me being silly, I just get agitated by meaningless joking that never falls into a more hearty conversation. It’s like conversational edging AGGHHH.
It’s like having this totally awesome sandwich in front of you but only being allowed to have one bite every 20 minutes
And it’s also like the being perceived of it? Like if someone does break off into a side convo it’s always “hmmm what are they talking about”.
I always come out of situations like this feeling so lame because I was the funny quip guy for the night and not the damn I learnt so many cool stories off that guy guy.
Can’t a man yearn a yap DAYUM