sometimes you gotta become your own wicked stepmother/cruel jail warden/bootcamp drill sergeant and force yourself to get in there with a bucket and a scrubby brush. an often overlooked spring cleaning item that is very much worth the time and effort because no, that stuff on the walls of your shower isn’t just “hard water,” it’s mildew. and mold. and there’s a lot of it.
even if shit continues to hit the fan, pretty much everyone ends up exactly where they’re supposed to be. you will find a place to live, a job, a lover, friends, etc. just keep going and it will be ok.