I was certainly going through something
Apr 22, 2024
Related Recs
Big navel gazer here; I often start in a delusionally romantic state of viewing things and evolve to a kind of reserved pragmatism through the process critical examination. Lately, writing has been like preserving these ephemeral states in amber, coexisting in a state of delicious permanence I can return to, instead of allowing them to wash away with the tides. This ultimately helps me engage more deeply with the world.
Jan 14, 2025
โ๏ธ
โI am nothing, I am everything, and Iโm certainly never in between to two. Itโs stupid to think I could be anything other than me, miserable and birthed. Death to everyone who isnโt such things. What is the point of life if not to indulge every dreadfully mediocre sadness to its climax only to realize you have to get off a whole single file line of dreadfully mediocre sadnesses? Respite is only plausible in physicality. There is no escape from a self pitying and exhaustingly guilty mind. Hypocrisy after hypocrisy, I weave myself more securely into my mental web. No one gets in, no one gets out. Itโs the way I like it and the way I insurmountably loathe it, balanced by the progression of life itself.โ
Jan 29, 2025
can't necessarily categorize this as a rec or an anti just more so an observation. whole year felt like I was walking around with my bones on backwards and my brain set loose in my skull. overall was a year that challenged my understanding of what it meant to be a human existing in these time. really awakened me to my own sensibilities and shortcomings and how they were in direct correlation to past traumas and the active suffering i was facing. strange, painful, and somewhat cringy time in my life but i'm very grateful for the growth that it encouraged. i bring all of this up to share this piece of prose I found that I never fully fleshed out and oh my. what was truly going on?!? (ignore the abhorrent grammatical errors and lack of pacing lmao a hoe was clearly going through it on more than one account)
Jul 1, 2025
Top Recs from @lotus
๐ธ
My toes into situations I should not.
Apr 25, 2024
๐
This it the kind of scent that will leave those within a couple feet of you trying to put their finger on its opulence for hours afterward. This fragrance is more of a feeling. On application it has a warm, woodsy quality, with an after note of floral sweetness. Its central ingredient of ambroxin morphs the middle notes of the fragrance to the nose based on your skin chemistry/ ph, giving it an intoxicating, lascivious artificial quality. It feels like running your fingers over silk. The saccharine blend of sugar and tapioca powder, like an embrace and being the last person awake at night all at the same time. Perfectly ambiguous in its qualities, and perfectly limitless to those who can (and should) wear it.
Apr 25, 2024