Maybe i have too high a tolerance for discomfort but something tells me thats not the worst thing. Whats so bad about slapping on a smile when it hurts. You go for a run you change your perspective and things are good until they aren’t and you go and try to fix it again. about the journey right? maybe it is better to be honest with yourself i dont know. But this works sometimes for me believe in life and love try ur best etc. sorry to preach.