i might not know how i'd wanna spend the rest of my life, because i think i'd be okay to die at any moment knowing i've loved as much as i can, to myself and the people/surroundings that matter the most.
but the least i can offer you is this virtual hug 🫂
take care darling, spend some time in introspection. maybe you'll find something so so beautiful buried deep within you, as dark as it seems, in preparation for death.