I have to be doing something with my hands or have an activity planned for myself outside of work, I am rarely just chilling by myself with my own thoughts (I call friends and family so much which is a strength but sometimes it’s just to talk and exhaust myself)
Trying to be better at savoring moments and not rushing through things but it’s physically uncomfortable for me to just do nothing sometimes
Jul 18, 2024
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I need to work. I need to keep my mind busy with goals. Big ones, small ones, ambitions and routines, I need it all. As a kid I was always labeled uh, like smart. Or something like that. Gifted. I was a gifted child hahahahaha. I was praised for my verbose conversations, and knowledge of trivial shit from pop culture and presidential history. I didn’t have a lot of solid friends growing up, and I spent a lot of my time with adults. So, I was always pampered with “You’re gonna be ____ one day!” And that shit. I never built a work ethic. I guess it’s my fault, but I don’t know if it was internal or external. As an adult now, I feel like I have to make up for that lost time. I have to constantly work on my personal affairs, and the events I do. Or else I’ll fall into that childhood-teenage bad habit of not doing anything.
Dec 26, 2022
There’s something I feel like I’m chasing all the time. I catch glimpses of it when I’m relaxing in nature or when I’m with friends. Like the desire to settle but I just can’t.
Jan 18, 2025
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I am a very neurotic person living essentially among a daily mist of anxious intellectualizing... Who is currently mildly concussed... Maybe. Thus my most valued personal system is physically or at least psychically affected which is interesting... I was told to "take it easy" and be watchful of signs i should take a step back and stop doing whatever it is that causes, for example, nausea
Historically i am always doing a "powering through" and "withstanding" action often to get to the most intense version/end of whatever sensation it is i am feeling at the time, i.e. with substances
Hannah from Girls -style, like, putting myself masochistically in the way of things to suffer and then write about it
This is good advice for many situations, to not do that and just stop sometimes
Jan 17, 2024
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