i am a hopeless romantic and will take all the chances I get to keep up with relationships.
Summer 2023, i met someone in San Diego and was in contact with him for a very long time. I expected him to be a legitimate partner, maybe even have a long distance relationship, move out there and live this idyllic life in California.
Then, last June he stops messaging me. I sent him messages on and off to see how he was doing. He saw them, but never responded. Then he blocked me out of nowhere in October.
I kinda had a breakdown. I felt like I was unlovable, that he was my last chance to have a relationship with someone who had most of my wants in a future partner. I was willing to compromise so much for him, then he just went away, with no explanation.
Things got better, and I started talking to someone else who feels even more compatible with me. And I am loving this. i feel more calm with this person and i am allowed to be myself even more than I have with other men I have talked to.
Then last night, i randomly woke up to a message from the guy in San Diego.
He is a city away from me currently and I was perplexed, and angry. I told him how he hurt me, and then he wanted to talk to me about it. But i haven’t responded since.
I imagined with situations like this, at least in the movies there’s sometimes a spark of hope that shows up when the old flame returns. However, that didn’t happen last night. I was annoyed. And a bit disgusted.
Romance is a lot, but I am happy with my current situation and the love and attention I feel like I am getting, and deserve.