Eating with tiny spoons and forks is great. It tricks your brain into thinking you get to enjoy more food, even though portion sizes aren’t actually changing. Also, smaller utensils make your hands look bigger! See attached picture for comparison.
You will surprise yourself and you will connect with the coolest groups of people. Don’t let imposter syndrome or rejection stop you. Get rejected one hundred times. It’s worth it for the times you’ll be seen and accepted and supported. And you get to support others while you’re at it.