going to a show with these two in a few weeks (!!!) so i made a playlist to get excited, but have only realized how fully these two women encompass the full spectrum of emotions after someone has broken your heart. from missing them, to wanting revenge and wanting them to hurt, to loving them, to hating them, to slipping up and reaching out, to wondering where you went wrong, to changing yourself to make them want you more, to realizing you weren't enough because nothing ever will be, to knowing if you reach out you'll only lower your guard, to never knowing what you meant to them, and the interplay between all of those things. everything i've felt this month tenfold.
especially potent when you've spent a while not listening to these fun, poppy female artists you love so much because you were afraid you'd look less "cool" to some guy you like with strong music opinions. but i'm done feeling bad about what makes me feel happy and energetic. i don't care if it's cool or niche or cringe or not! i love women! i love having fun! i can only foster positive friendships and relationships going forward if i allow that for myself!