Trying hard is sometimes being looked down upon, it's not ""cool". You know what, who cares. I get comments so often, like "your intense, you're such a try hard or why do you actually ..." and comments a like. I used to see it as weird/mean comments, until later when I realised some people just hate to see others actually enjoying themeselves. Another thing, the fact that I'm doing my best doesn't mean that I excell and tbh I used to find that a bit depressing. But recently I've learned to embrace the fact that it's actually quite nice to just do things, whatever the result. Def a change in mindset on things, but it has been a really nice change in mindset so far.