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Finally booked that doctor appointment I've been avoiding for a while, now I just have to go…
Being an adult it's made sometimes of just these routinely obligations that you could come to see as boring but this one is straight-up anxiety inducing for me. But as Kierkegaard said (probably not in this exact words) it's better to know that not to know. I'm so chill about this. :)))))
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From the nervous of waiting, not sleeping and fasting. Today knocked me out. Luckily the ultrasound showed nothing serious 👏🏼 😮💨.
As the technician was checking everything I thought of a few struggles with adulting/getting older:
1. Anything with/on/in the body becomes a scare. Get checked out right away!
2. The nervous system takes forever to recover.
Be kind with yourself in intense moments and find ways to ground yourself.
3. Make time to work out…. (the recommendation from the technician today...)
May 11, 2024
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I feel powerful. And all I did was go to the doctors office.
Dec 20, 2024
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Last night I got a sleep study and it wasn’t easy, but it was important that I do it and now it’s done!
Apr 2, 2024
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one of my old faves, back in high school I was really angry and this song channeled all that frustration
Jan 14, 2025
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I have many favourites (I wasn’t an ipad kid I was a tv kid) and I know they are not exactly the most prestigious tv shows but they are always meaningful, at least to me lol.
Raising Hope
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Don’t trust the b- in apartment 23
Jan 21, 2025
Sometimes it just pops out of nowhere, sometimes it’s just a passing memory and sometimes out of the blue I feel the weight of what happened. I had a best friend, a person with which I connected in a way I never did with anyone. She moved out of the city and with that she stopped any communication with me. I miss her. I miss her so much. I feel like I must have fucked up big time for this to be happening. In our last call I told her I was worried we would lose contact with the distance and she told me it would never happen. I believed her. It’s a weird sadness; most of the time I can see clearly that more than try to text her I cannot do much and I’m angry or confused about the situation but it passes, I go by my day. But sometimes this wave of sadness arrives and I remember how she made me laugh, how she looked at me, the day we actually talked like friends for the first time and then it hits me that we might have spoken for the last time. how could that be? I still believe her. One day she’ll call me and my memories of today will fade and get replaced by others of us together.
I should have called her more, told her more times how I loved her, how she was beautiful, we should have gone to more concerts together, we should have said yes to that dude who wanted to interview us for a tiktok. We should have when there still was a we.
One day talking about relationships, I mentioned how incapable I am at letting go and how sometimes I start to resent the person I can’t let go for the things we do to each other. So maybe it’s all for the best, maybe I’m being spared, maybe it will save our memories from being tainted, maybe that‘s all the time meant for us. I don’t know but I wish I did.
Jan 18, 2025