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Nostalgia is so powerful. And so painful. I’ve made Pinterest boards filled with hundreds of memories and toys and things that shaped my childhood. I’ve made playlists that include only songs that make me feel 6 years old again. I’ve watched movies that bring me the same wonder they did as when I watched them as a child. But nothing will ever truly bring me back there. It’s gone forever. to know that I will never walk the halls of my elementary school building, or try and plant an apple seed in between the slides of the playground, or play tag with my best buddies ever again is something unbearable. life is so short. I miss it all of the time. Adulthood has its perks as well. I never have to ask to go sleep over at a friends house and get told no. I can eat what i want. I can get a kitten if I feel like it. But I miss the simplicity and happiness of being a child. I miss just existing and being okay with that. i miss how I felt when I was 6, but I have to accept that I must leave that behind. Maybe reincarnation is real. Maybe I will live through something like this life again? There is an ache knowing I will never walk the same tiny footsteps as I once did. But alas, I’ll be 19 years from where I’m at now and miss this age just as much as I do then. The ache will take a new shape. And i will continue living on.
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Feb 12, 2025

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it’s so funny how now that i’m an adult, nostalgia hits you like a truck. i find myself yearning for something that doesn’t exist anymore. although media and physical object like music, movies, shows and toys can take me back to a similar feeling. accepting the hard truth; realizing that i will never be that “free” (free from big adult responsibilities) is such a disheartening emotion. nostalgias a bitch and a half.
Feb 12, 2025
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bossanovalvr it's a pill that i have yet to swallow, that's for sure :/
Feb 12, 2025
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This is a key component to happiness!
Feb 12, 2025
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you should read the power of now ❤️
Feb 12, 2025
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notapillar will look into this!
Feb 12, 2025
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this might be crazy but you should listen to Touch and Go by Adam Melchor, i think it encapsulates this feeling (the bittersweetness) really well to the point where i often feel nauseous when i listen to it LOL
Feb 12, 2025
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jellycaaat I absolutely will!!
Feb 12, 2025
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I used to suffer and I mean deeply suffer from this endless nostalgia that would make me hate life. What it fixed for me was to understand there is a purpose for me to be here at this time. Well I believe God makes no mistakes and even having a nostalgic heart has a purpose—such as being some sort of memory keeper. Some of the greatest minds were always longing for the past in a way, looking back but trying to extract something to apply in the present and then shape the future. As for me I long for home, and I know its not in this world yet. Just wanted to share because this one hits me in a very personal way.
Feb 12, 2025
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iva that is such an amazing way to look at things wow I really enjoyed your perspective on this
Feb 12, 2025

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When I think about it, I think most of my nostalgia stems from being a child because I was unequivocally aware that I was filled with joy and trusting my present state. I was able to thrive in naivety because I was around people who had my best interest at heart. I didn't feel heartbreak simply because I was a child and had no purpose to date. I never felt true betrayal (even on the contrary of my second grade best friend randomly becoming my third grade bully...or attempted bully). My friends lived next door and on hot summer days we stayed outside from sun up til the street lights came on. Riding around the neighborhood on our bikes, buying candy from the corner store, then playing hopscotch with the bigger kids across the street. The nostalgia to truly feel free from the complexities that I face daily with interactions. I look back and my sisters and brothers were always around. I think about the days where we danced and sang songs. Never aware that that day was the last day where we are under the same roof, laughing and mocking but with so much love in our hearts that we don't care. We just feel good.
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i’m a very nostalgic and sentimental person. i feel that i’ve lived a majority of my life in my head, and i find that i enjoy the past more than i ever enjoy the present. i don’t think nostalgia is a bad thing, but i can definitely fall into feeling sad because i’m yearning for different eras of my life (here’s the kicker- even if i know i was actually miserable during that time, but now that i’m slightly more removed, i’ve romanticized the experience) well the other day my mom and i talked about the idea of being nostalgic for the moment you’re currently in. notice all of the little details that are creating the experience you’re having, and be grateful that you live a life that’s worth remembering and looking back on. file that moment away, so then, weeks/months/years from now when you’re looking back on this moment, you’ll know that you experienced it fully.
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when did christmas stop being christmas and just become another day? what happened to my joy and my fuzzy feelings? christmas decorations used to make me excited, but now i dread the effort it takes to put up the tree. why are the colours in my life less vibrant as how i remember them from my childhood? where did my dreams go, the ones where i used to fly and meet the hero’s in my life or when i used to dream up new animals or an entirely new world? now my dreams are just dull and bland. where did my imagination go? my inventive spark? the mud pies and the tree climbing? when was the last time my dad picked me up and put me to bed? where did my childhood go, and when did it truly leave me?
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