life without god or something to live for is so hard sometimes
i grew up christian but left the church when i was 15 bc i just feel like i can’t believe in something i cant see or feel.
i’ve been trying to pray & believe in something bigger than myself but the moment something goes wrong it makes me doubt that there’s actually a god that is listening to me.
could someone help me, if you believe in god..or if you don’t. what helps you believe? and if you don’t believe, what helps you on your hard days when you want help from someone bigger than yourself?
it’s kinda depressing believing in absolutely nothing but i can’t force myself to believe, ya know?