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1) the french word for 'orgasm' is 'la petite mort' which is a) feminine and b) translates directly to 'a little death'
2) that scene in the adventure time miniseries stakes when princess bubblegum is talking to marceline and cradling her face and says 'i care about you... and when you die, i'm gonna be the one to put you in the ground'
3) cannibalism media and the idea that to consume someone, even in harming them, is the way you express love for them, because that's the way you get to be closest for them
3a) yellowjackets
3b) that song breezeblocks by alt j with that lyric 'please don't go ill eat you whole / please don't go i love you so'
3c) freud's distinction btwn mourning and melancholia - where mourning is where you healthily deal with a loss by realizing that the thing you lost is separate from you, and melancholia is the thing where you cant deal with a loss and internalize the thing that you lost, and in becoming that thing refuse to acknowledge its disappearance
4) crush by richard siken, specifically 'because you want die for love, you always have... you're going to die in your best friend's arms' (richard siken is my hero even though he cyber harassed me over email for two days straight)
5) how phoebe bridgers sings 'im gonna kill you but please don't beat me to it'
5a) how i listened to that song over and over after my ex friend died (ex friend and not friend bc they did some messed up stuff so much that i could have wanted to kill them but they beat me to it)
Jan 5, 2024
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May 30, 2024
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love this question, I’ll answer with a few songs because I think different kinds of love are each unique and can be appreciated differently
platonic: Austin Christy - I’ll be Around
maternal/familial: Porter Robinson - Mother / Porter Robinson - Is There Really No Happiness?
self love: Todd Rundgren - Healing pt. 2
romantic: Nicole Miglis - One and Only
sexual: The Dare - Good Time
phenomenological (the love of one’s lived experience/consciousness): Bibio - The Art of Living
spiritual: Todd Edwards - Perfect Love
Oct 4, 2024
maybe the most perfect corny love song ever written. if you tell me that guitar solo doesn’t do something to you when you hear it you’re lying. straight from the heart and so saccharine it could kill you. be careful, excessive listening to Red Rose Speedway may cause the following side effects: pining, grooving, daydreaming, and toe-tapping.
Sep 24, 2024
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every ig update reminds me of how far i am from the life i was promised. i was supposed to be working at buzzfeed making six figures writing listicles wearing those studded steve madden pumps and posting only squares with the rio dijanero filter.
every ig update is like a new gunshot to my already bleeding body. they’re useless and unwanted. idgaf about turning my feed to rectangles. show me who unfollowed me. next update is gonna be a tab with two buttons: one sucks your dick and the other shoots you in the face except you don’t know which one is which. honestly i’d rather have that instead of the rectangles. Modernity I Rebuke You.
Jan 17, 2025
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i feel like an 80s mobster. or a 19th century bachelor with an unfortunate attraction to bohemia. someone who would’ve been called a rake in those days bc i was dancing with married women and gambling and learning french instead of carrying on the bloodline or courting duchesses.
Feb 9, 2024
i fell up the escalator at the union square station and ended up with this bruise on my thigh that quite literally spells out HI. if it is who i hope it is then thats cool. if its not then thats also ok too because this is the coolest shit ever. i feel like that guy in glee when he found the grilled cheesus. here’s the bruise with the photo edited for clarity i promise im not unwell just turn up your brightness. let me think about the dead people i know whose birthdays could be coming up.
Feb 6, 2024