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sincere posting look away if ur not a lovestruck fool
sometimes i look at this man with so much love in my heart it feels like butterflies again. i have best friends, of course. i love them so much and they will be in my life forever. but in these moments i’m struck with the thought “you are truly my best friend.” in past relationships, i’d try to force that feeling. now, it really does just occur to me. i get so excited for forever with him. most days, it’s not like this. most days we’re just together and there’s no stress or worry about our relationship. we’re just two people together, happy and that’s that. i am so used to this kind of love, it’s become my normal. but some days, i am struck by how in love i am and how lucky i am.
the first time i realized this was forever, a part of me felt weird about that. i had to say goodbye to the part of me that loved first dates, first kisses, and the ‘will they won’t they.’ Forever was always what I was looking for, but when presented with it, I worried about never feeling that way again.
Anyway, I don’t get first date feelings now, and I’ll never kiss someone new. But this feeling is so much better. He’s asleep right now, and I cannot wait for him to wake up so I can spend another day laughing with him.
Jan 29, 2024
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now i am a very lucky person because i am in love with some who was once one of my best friends. (sadly this rec probably isn’t universally applicable but contains good lessons i hope!) i’d met him during the first week of freshman year of college, and we immediately became close. hung out a ton and related on a lot of issues/values but our interactions were always platonic.
by wintertime we were being seen together around campus a ton, to the point that our acquaintances started asking whether we were a couple. we’d laugh at the idea, even joking about it ourselves. oh how oblivious we were.
spring rolled around and i suddenly caught feelings. for a couple weeks i tried to convince myself i didn’t like him because i was so afraid of losing our beautiful friendship. i thought it impossible that he would feel the same as me. yes, pretty torturous!! alas, my Emotional Suppression didn’t work. thank god, because one night when we were hanging out in my room he finally kissed me. i had been so afraid but instantly i knew it was right. the risk was worth it.
we’ve now been together for almost two years and he is truly the love of my life. he is the best risk I’ve ever taken. yes this is so platitudinous, but sometimes love comes when you least expect it and appears in odd places!
more generally, i think
- looking for people whose values align with yours is a wonderful place to start establishing intimate and long-lasting relationships, both platonic and romantic.
- it’s never worthwhile to force something to work out if your gut tells you it’s wrong — you’re worth more than that. love doesn’t thrive when it’s fed by obligation and pressure.
- don’t be afraid to present yourself in your full authenticity to others. if someone else has a problem with You in your Grandest Expression, they’re not worth your energy. love is meant to affirm and expand who you are, not place boundaries on it.
- go on self dates and explore what it means to have a loving relationship with yourself! you, as a singular self, are already whole and enough without having a partner. you are complete as a baseline regardless of your relationship status; a partner is meant to complement and embrace this wholeness!!
love is ridiculous and hard and beautiful; trust it when you feel it!!
Nov 10, 2024
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I am pretty certain that I am with the person I'm going to marry. We've been through so much together and no one in the world has ever known me as intimately as he does. My soul is crystal clear to him. And he loves me.
Most importantly, he is always ready to learn even more about me and to evolve with me and to make space for me in his life, in his habits, and in his behaviour.
I love him so much. I'm so lucky. I hope I find him in all my other lives. I hope we're together until the end of time.
Nov 29, 2024
I had seen people casually before my current partner of almost 12 years, but never love.
I realized I could spend near infinite amount of time with him.
That I didn’t mind holding his hand in public
Or snuggling with him in front of my family
Or introducing him to my friends
Or calling him babe or love.
The idea of vacationing to him only sounded fun.
The idea of moving in together felt right and he felt the same way.
We revel/ed in love celebrations.
All of this happened for me within the first year and I was completely thrown off because I was always stressed out about the potential of being seen (both at all but especially as a spectacle that a relationship brings) and then with him I didn’t mind at all.
Mar 2, 2025
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I cannot help being a panopticon unto myself so I am documenting every time I cry in 2024 and I have an emoji based system for the cause. I also include the title of the media that’s made me cry.
Cat names I’d use. I’d need about 800 cats to fulfill this list.
Gifts for my partner - things he mentions throughout the year off handedly.
Monarchs/monarch adjacent people I am interested in learning more about from my English/French/Scottish monarch fascination earlier this year.
Favorite short stories. Media I want to consume.
Gratitude lists. Also, a list of hyper specific things I like to look at when I don’t feel like a person.
A list of people my best friend and I predict will die in 2023 and 2024. I won last year.
Lyrics that rip my heart out. Favorite episodes of Charmed and why.
so many more lol. i am obsessed with personal little lists.
Jan 26, 2024
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i somehow made everyone in his family concerned at christmas by doing this bit and forgetting they’re the most gullible people in the world. like his mom and brother urgently flocked to feel his head.
Jan 26, 2024
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I started kindergarten and the school a playground for the younger kids and another for the bigger kids. The playground for the bigger kids was obviously way cooler. I told my dad and after school he took me to the big kids playground at the elementary school so I could test it out.
Jan 26, 2024