This is a major brain worm for me. My values in making plays and music are ultimately aligned with small-scale community building, and I hold very closely the idea that the measures of success are the ongoing, mutually beneficial relationships that grow from the initial collaboration. But, my desire is for my play to have a wildly successful run at a well-funded off-broadway theater. My desire is to have an album blow up and make a ton of money and be popular enough to tour on. But values and desires are different things and sometimes not aligned. And at the end of the day I can always say that I stick to my values.... despite those desires also being present.
Anyways, to answer your question...... despite myself, I believe somewhere that my work will only achieve its ultimate goal when it experiences commercial success. Hopefully it does, but at the same time, who cares!!!!!!