To startā> I donāt want this to come off as trauma dumpy, I am v happy with the person Ive grown into. Who I wouldnāt be if I didnāt have these experiences:)
Iāve moved around so so so much especially as a kid. I used to feel v guilty bc there were a lot of friends I left behind bc of circumstances beyond my control. This pattern became a trend that continued throughout my life. Went to 4 high schools; was going thru a lot, and was referred to as a ghost.
Having someone you didnāt even realize knew who u were say āomg! Itās been a year! We thought youād died, wow, how are you? Yk a lot of people tried to reach outā¦etcā completely changed my perspective on the world. I didnāt even realize the possibility I was really noticed outside of my immediate friend group.
Another case happened this year at university. I was chatting w someone from a class, their friends walk up to say hi, and one says āyour name is Sophia right?ā I said yes and assumed Iād just met her while drunk at a show. So I apologized, and asked her name/ where she was from and all that jazz. It got more awkward when she said we went to the same school growing up, same class and everything. I didnāt recognize her at all, but obviously she knew me, it was so bizarre. Continued to see her around campus nearly every day for the rest of the year Lolz.
It didnt all actualize for me until recently, and still makes my head spin. I canāt imagine how many people I unintentionally became a ghost to :// being perceived is crazyyyy