I've had issues with my name, I never really liked or identified with it until recently. I think it's really pretty but idk it just never felt connected to me. Thankfully, it isn't my full first name, Amaya-mei, so online and for a chunk of my life I went by "Mei" and most people who've met me online still call me that.
Now, I've come to really like my own name, whether it's Amaya, Amaya-mei, or Mei. But I've also really enjoyed being called by the usernames that I choose. So Juniper, Cosmo, Meiji, etc. In the end go with what feels right for you! I've had sooo many names across the interwebs and they all feel like me. So I'd say go with what feels like you.