idk even though there are so many more annoying external circumstances like not being on my family health insurance etc., having to fully support myself and deal with shitty landlords, my metabolism slowing down and weird health issues......... i feel so much stronger and cooler and mature and open to life as opposed to when i was in my early 20s. i feel more secure in my decision-making (not perfect) and stable in my skin. i was not granted the grace i deserved from myself or from others in my early 20s. maybe it's a capricorn and aquarius stellium thing too, but as i get older, i feel more discerning and stable.