yes my family is crazy. the feud was so bad, my father is chaotic narcissist, and my mother was a depressive narcissist. they were always relocating and running away from my mamas parents bc they disapproved of my papa nd resulted in a lot of ppl traumatized. but ev one is civil now.
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when i was 6 i loved to read and found a womans magazine lying around my grandparents house. it had a lot of graphic sexual content like how to effectively masturbate as a woman and how to finger/eat a man’s ass. my mama went to pick me up and found me casually reading this magazine in the dining room and she got so mad at my grandparents for leaving me unsupervised. that led me to my research abt sex and probs why i was sexually awakened at a young age.
Jul 5, 2024
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i was maybe 12 or 13 and my mum and i were volunteering at a farm that rescued old/abused farm animals. we were sitting in a circle with the owners and other volunteers, and they started going around the circle saying how long they had been vegan. i was not vegan, never had been vegan, and am not vegan even now, and i said that. every person there (all adults) gave me intense stares and side-eyes, and one owner told me that i should think about how much i liked animals when i was eating them.
anyway, we got on to volunteering and it was going well until lunchtime. i had gotten mud in my boots, so my socks were muddy, and i was trying to clean them. two women in their 20s came over and asked me if i wanted a new pair of socks. i refused at first, but they insisted, so i said okay. they then said that the socks were out in their car, and i should come with them to get the socks out of their trunk. i said that i didn’t need them that badly, but they were very pushy about getting socks from their vehicle, which was ‘just near the end’ of the farm’ insanely long driveway.
i kept refusing until i had to say that i was going to find my mum, because they still insisted. so, i got up and left (quickly) with my muddy socks.
i later found out from my mum that these people shoved pedestrians in busy cities into booths with slaughterhouse videos running, in order to ‘spread awareness’. they were also infamous for their hundred-person ‘gatherings’ on their farm.
i ended up not telling my mum about the two women until maybe a year ago and she was very shocked.
Jul 4, 2024
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during a fire drill in first grade, a jumping spider bit me. i wasn’t doing a thing to him and i think what upsets me most is that he couldn’t assess my vibes to know i wasn’t a threat. i had a really mean teacher and i tried to tell her, but she angrily shushed me, as we weren’t allowed to speak during fire drills. i accepted my fate and figured she would be sorry later.
i remember wistfully staring out the window as my mom drove me home, coming to terms with the end of my life. i didn’t tell her, for fear of worrying her. i peacefully ate my final dinner when i got home (velveeta mac and cheese, which i hated then and i still do now. but again, i didn’t want to complain as my mom would have a bigger issue at hand when she went to go wake me up in the morning.)
i went to bed without a fuss. said goodbye to my then two year old sister, took a look around my room and gave a sigh. this was it. and i went to bed knowing i had lived a long, good six years of life.
well, dear reader, i am here writing this 20
years later. so rest assured, i did survive. but i think my rational (?) thought in that moment helped me work through a lot of existential stuff at an early age. so i guess that’s cool.
Jul 4, 2024
His name is NewBeanMeister22. 8 or so years back, when I was in college, I found out about his insane youtube channel.
Basically, the lore is this: he started as a weird but normal toy review channel with his wife, but that all changed when he got a package from ebay that contained a black widow spider that had just laid eggs. Supposedly the spiders scurried into his crawlspace and infested it, and soon spread to the rest of his house, meaning he had to quarantine his dog and kids away from the spread.
He was desperate to be rid of the black widows, but too stubborn to hire a professional, so he started capturing other bugs from his backyard and releasing them into his house in hopes that they would kill the black widows. To mixed results. He filmed all of this and continued to release toy reviews and travel videos even as black widows overtook his house.
He got caught in drama a few years ago when he was accused of reusing old footage to fake the infestation despite having gotten rid of the spiders. So now he fessed up that they have been taken care of, yet harnesses his love of insects (and the fact that most of his viewers came to his channel to gawk at his black widow infestation) to maintain an extensive cast of pet spiders and mantises. A legend in my eyes, and a saga me and my roommate watched unfold in real time.
Jan 18, 2025
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its a subgenre of dance and the first edm genre to originate from the Philippines. this guy DJ love invented it and incorporated local Badjao ethnic sounds. you would hear it in fiestas mostly in the provinces and street parties. ngl i used to hate this genre back in highschool n thought it sounded silly bc i was lameee
Jul 25, 2024
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"If I'm an advocate for anything, it's to move. As far as you can, as much as you can. Across the ocean, or simply across the river. The extent to which you can walk in someone else's shoes or at least eat their food, it's a plus for everybody. Open your mind, get up off the couch, move."
–Anthony Bourdain
Jul 4, 2024
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okay this has been cool for me because
- i have somewhere to go to when i am bored with my work from home setup
- i have the privilege of taste testing their new stuff
- they give me free shit lmao
- we can share our cool hobbies/interests
- we get to talk about the craft which they're so passionate about or just have a wholesome conversation
Jan 17, 2025