Rec | GLIMPSES OF CHILD-LIKE JOY

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Not a rec but here to tell you that I also don’t remember my childhood very well. I once had a conversation where I realized *I* was the weird one for not remembering much. I kind of wondered for a long time what was wrong with me. My memory is pretty bad generally to this day :/ Just putting this here so you feel a little less alone in this. My therapist will also try to get me to remember my child self but I feel pretty removed from her. It kind of sucks, but also I feel like i get glimpses… I recently started using stickers in my journal when I’ve completed a book, and it makes me feel like a child again, but I really love it. Maybe there are glimpses that will come to you, but it’s hard to go looking for them

@hollycookswithfriends

Aug 5, 2024

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@delicious_marmoset

thank you for sharing! i'll try to find something younger me used to love doing. I hope you remember your child self very soon.

Aug 5, 2024

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