so about half the time my "internal monologue" is my own voice giving myself instructions (ex. "ok, i have ten minutes to spare. what should i do? i think i'm gonna pull up pi.fyi and look at posts until i have to get back to work."). it's not literally me listening to my own voice because i am conceptualizing the voice much faster than i (or any human) is capable of speaking, but it definitely coherently exists in my head as a fleshy .mp3 file, and it is definitely my voice.
the other half of the time i am simulating social scenarios in my head. there are a variety of scenarios where i do this: sometimes i am actually rehearsing for a real social situation that is actually going to happen, sometimes i'm merely preparing for the possibility of a social situation, sometimes i'm trying to do a post-mortem on a situation that has already occurred so i can think about how to improve, and sometimes i'm just talking to an imaginary adversary in my head in order to find and plug holes in my worldview / philosophy etc.
adding the caveat that if i am alone (or merely think i am alone) the "internal" monologue / conversation frequently becomes an external one, and i am sometimes ambushed by my partner and / or roommates who occasionally hear me passionately arguing with an imaginary person and i've just kind of made peace with the fact that i am going to appear casually schizophrenic to anyone who catches me doing this because i genuinely believe that actively trying to rehearse conversations and arguments in advance is what helped me get over my debilitating introversion to the extent that i have
Oct 2, 2024
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It’s my voice but it’s definitely not me because she refers to me. For instance when I need to get up in the morning it’s like “dude you have to get up you have so much to do and you can’t afford to have a late start.” In other words, it’s never coming through in the first person. So it’s like someone with my voice constantly talking to me I guess. She’s cool though, a little judgy at times, but really fucking funny and I couldn’t imagine living my life without her tbh. The biggest con to an internal monologue in my experience is that I can’t shut it off. And you can’t really ignore it because it’s in your head.
It’s insane to me that people don’t have internal monologues, though. Like y’all are just thinking on mute? There’s no one else up there?
Oct 3, 2024
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I only use it to listen to my own voice. Like I literally just used it yesterday because during one of my work meetings, there was an echo and I kept hearing my voice after everything that I said, and my voice sounded so god-awful that I needed to like practice talking into my phone
Nov 8, 2024
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I don’t really have a distinct internal monologue and def don’t hear my thoughts in my own voice- I’m a twin and my sister does have an internal monologue in her own voice! But it’s hard to explain what shape thoughts take for me- thinking in Vibes or something 😎😎😎
Feb 19, 2024
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spent the last two weeks working on an interactive guide, recommendations database, and digital library (link depot) to help get people off of social media. the first draft is done now, and it's at the link to this post.
it's still very much a work in progress (the library is especially thin atm) - which is why i wanted to share it here before unleashing it upon my IRL friends and the general public. i welcome any and all feedback, bug reports, and suggestions for things to add. i will be pushing updates to it out like a madman in the coming weeks, so be sure to check back every so often to see new additions to the database and library.
additionally, i am still on the hunt for newsletters from local venues / community organizations / magazines / newspapers, etc. the only cities i have remotely covered so far are nyc, orlando, denver, brisbane, and little bits of worcester and chicago. if you know anything in your area that fits the bill, send it my way!
Jan 27, 2025
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it is your civic duty to mercilessly mock generative ai users as much as possible
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it’s so bad that discourse about it being bad is kind of played out now but it bears repeating how fucking bad it is
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