i changed nearly everything about my life including myself very intentionally and in stages.
through journaling and some tough decisions, boundaries, and support for what i was doing i completely altered everything i didn’t like. you can’t heal in the environment that caused you harm and my body was rejecting everything.
1. put study on hold (i didn’t quit it but just paused it until i was ready to start again on my own terms)
2. moved address to an area i love and thats right near the water
3. gained some creative outlets i would have never thought about allowing myself to showcase
4. found a workplace that i really like with people that have become my close friends
5. forced myself to move my body more
6. forced myself to eat better
7. romanticised everything and prioritised things i wanted short term for once
8. travelled!
Dec 4, 2024
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- going to bed & waking up early. no screen time right before sleeping or right after waking up either
- doing something creative every day, even if i only have the energy to manage a sentence in my journal or something. i've had a horrible creative block for months and i think the answer is just to force it
- prioritizing myself & my needs/wants over others. no more spreading myself too thin or neglecting what's right for me bc it's wrong for someone else in my life
- saying yes to things!!!
- taking my usual at home activities out of the house - writing at a cafe, etc
Dec 26, 2024
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This new year I’m gonna try to work on the major things I want to change about myself:
1)Setting and maintaining boundaries
2)Patience
3)Emotional regulation - anger, anxiety
4)Improving attention span
5)Less electronic time
Dec 25, 2024
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apparently i have the mentality of a five year old so i need to call myself out so i can move on and stop being petty
these are my toxic traits:
- really liking something until it becomes popular, and then i hate it because “i was there first”. like???? be tf fr im an adult don’t act like that
- not wanting to do smth or getting snappy because im overstimulated. the real world doesn’t cater to me or my feelings so i need to get a GRIP
- getting distracted easily or having my mind wander off when someone is talking to me. that needs to literally stop because i find myself doing it too much at work
- ghosting people unintentionally. i forget people message me too often because i get too caught up in my own thoughts
- being lazy to catch up with friends.
- not being mentally disciplined. this is a BIG one. the minute i have an inkling that i dont want to do smth most times than not i will find myself not doing it. i need to push though and just do it
- not wanting to leave the house after 9pm or not wanting to stay out later than 9pm (which is usually my sit in bed and chill until i sleep around 10 time) my friends invite me out to bars and such (which is not an environment i am fond of) but i need to remind myself they’re inviting me because they want to spend time with me and and value my company. i need to SUCK IT UP
- going to beach days (i hate the beach) for the same reasons as above
- i need to read more. i’m going to start finding books with less than 150 pages to try and get my mind back into being active and discipled. i need to work on my attention span, social media has ruined it.
- avoiding all apps that involve doom scrolling, i have an obsessive behaviour and one i start i wont stop
- being too lazy to dress nicely for casual occasions. i need to take more pride in my appearance
- i dont take the gym seriously enough. i have no back muscles and when i grow old, and if i do nothing about my lack of back muscles, i will become an old woman with a very big hunch back
- i don’t eat proper meals and i usually just snack. this is a very big one for me and i need to work on my nutrition
- i need to spend less time on my phone. i think i might start leaving my phone at home and just take my bank card with me so i can have some proper screen off time
now that ive called myself out publicly i need to work on these things and i think my life will change for the better
Jan 25, 2025
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i’m stupidly sensitive and nostalgic. blame astrology or blame aesthetics, either way i‘m open to recs from all the times hip hop/rap/r&b artists genre bended and included super indie samples/features. think little bit - drake & lykke li, she knows - j cole & the cults, same ol mistakes - rhianna (tame impala).
i want to see wired headphones, i want to touch a cassette tape, i want to indulge in pen caressing paper 🙂↕️ go off and perform a small act of modern rebellion.
(willing to make the spotify playlist public if you want 👉👈)
Nov 13, 2024
go get some cash out, have brunch, a sweet treat, get some quality fresh produce, and support local/small business 🍒
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