it’s almost like a small-scale external meditation to me. at random points i try to hyper focus on everything - how the light is hitting something, the surrounding sounds, how something feels on my skin, the scents of the moment, what unconscious movement someone (or myself) is making.
try to see, hear, feel, smell as much world as possible.
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yesterday, I sat in a movie theater, watching a 5/5 film, but somewhere between the frames, I slipped away in my own world. my eyes wandered around the room, scanning the foam-lined walls, the dust resting on cushioned seats, the soft glow of the screen flickering against strangers' faces. for a moment, I was no longer in the film— I was in my own world, watching, unnoticed, in a room full of people, feeling as though i am in a film myself.
it happens in the classroom too— pens scratching, pages turning, heads bent in deep concentration. and yet, I lift my gaze, watching the quiet rhythm of work, as if the scene before me is unfolding on a screen, as if I am only passing through.
maybe it’s a habit of slipping between worlds. one foot in reality, the other in observation. caught between being present and stepping back, seeing life not just as it is, but as a scene, a story, a moment unfolding. perhaps that’s the beauty of it — to exist both within and outside, to live and to notice, to be part of something yet still see it from afar.
Feb 22, 2025
this is me in my head thinking about systems and phenomena and stuff all the time
Feb 14, 2025
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cruising on autopilot and then all of a sudden you’re aware of the space you’re in - kind of like going from normal to .5 zoom… woah I’m here!
Mar 8, 2024
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i remember someone telling me at age 12 that i was too old to start ballet. all the kids my age allegedly have been practicing since they can walk essentially. fuck that i’m 27 and just came home from my third ballet class and its so cool! we’re all grownups learning to dance and every lesson makes me happy despite my awkward long stiff limbs or because of them.
Jan 8, 2025
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i just found out my phone hits the limit of possible tabs in safari at 500. what the fuck do i need 500 tabs for? close them all, the majority is stuff i already forgot about, don’t need and won’t buy. if its something i want or need to read or see anytime soon, bookmark that bad boy or put it where it belongs – in notes.
Jan 15, 2025