🕯️
Of all the carnivores and conquistadors, I stand amongst them ashamed of my once unknown allegiance to their ideology. I too have feasted on and misused the fruits of the earth. Blind to the reality that the lakes and birds fear me as well. For my arrogance had hindered my explorational nature and festered a globe-trotting conquistador eager to gain the attention of the creatures, as if it was mine for the taking. Recruited and trained to be ignorant, I marched on. Later came the bitter realization that I’m responsible for the mountains I’ve toppled, the flowers I’ve crushed, and the trees I’ve maimed. A hard and beastly recovery I left them. From harms brought from my hubris, my will. Their scars remain as I engage in my righteous examination. But what reckoning lies ahead for a carnivore? After scabs appear and new branches grow. As I sit awaiting the will of the wounded. I must engage with the newly uncovered truths and instruct change if I dream solemnly of growth. Change disconnected from my past ideology, separated from the carnivorous mind.
-Me
Jan 31, 2025
Related Recs
🏴
irrevocably to tatters, spur forth a change in oneself
Dec 15, 2023
Top Recs from @deadboyracer
⛪
With all the quick motions and shocking happenings of the world, I've been taking refuge in the faith I was raised with. Not with a reactionary frame of mind, but searching for the empathetic section of the world I knew when I was younger. Before, I learned about the expansive evils of the world and the contradictory nature of mainstream Christianity and, in extension, Catholicism. I've left the church, but I still visit from time to time, mentally. The teachings of love and justice have given me solace in these trying times. As some rights are being stripped and opportunities limited, my first reaction has been to pray for the people affected. Sympathy is hardwired in my bones, but it's new that I physically get on my knees to recite and conjure a prayer. I've been told I'm having a "come to God" moment, but honestly, I feel I'm falling in love with an idealistic version of Catholicism. Something I can defer to when the logical and the skeptical sections of my mind are overworked with anguish. I feel it couldn't only be me feeling these emotions.
Anyone else?
Jan 28, 2025
💍
Foolishly in love with my self-loathing, we’ve been married for years now. Although history proves I've been loyal, I can’t lie; my eyes are wandering. Moving on and self-acceptance have been looking real good recently. I think it's the promise they hold. I’ve inched towards them slowly, but I’m a married man. Leaving something that’s been with me for so long now is very daunting. To leave is to break trust and commitment. Who's lain in bed with me all these years, who's kept me company after dark? How could I dare leave my loyal partner? How foolish of me.
-Me
Feb 12, 2025
In the circles I run in, it’s very underappreciated. Freddie and Alchemist must’ve sold their souls or something because the album from start to finish is literally the most beautiful and perfectly executed album ever. It’s perfect for long drives, walks around the neighborhood, and it’s perfect barbershop music. If you know what I mean. The lyrics exude a certain rawness and sincerity that, when juxtaposed with the peaceful samples on the instrumentals, form the perfect listening experience. The album feels too intimate at times; it genuinely takes me aback.
Jan 31, 2025