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I‘ve spent my whole life giving into all of my self-destructive tendencies. I’ve been so unwilling to accept the life I‘ve been given as my own that I tend to get myself hurt over and over again as if that’s going to change anything. For a while I was convinced I was just going to kms soon anyways, but I‘ve realized recently that I really don’t have that in me and that was a big wake up call. I‘m done applying self-hatred and a desire to see myself hurt onto every single decision I make. I‘m learning to love who I am and accept the one I am right now, regardless of what’s to come. Everyone deserves to live a happy life, and that includes me. It includes you, too <3
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I have really delayed so much of my healing by clinging to certain people or ideas, forgetting that life doesn’t often turn out the way that you imagine. (It can be better than you imagine if you simply let it happen!!) I have been living my life in devotion to “what-ifs” and half baked desires instead of just enjoying who I am, what I have and what’s in front of me. No more of that!!! What good can come out of forcing it? I’m trying to go with the flow and give myself permission to change and accept the change around me and be happy.
Oct 24, 2024
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there’s that whole thing with being a former gifted kid, or even just an outgoing person, or a highly involved/high achiever. maybe just a really happy, entertaining type.
i feel like i’ve lost that part of myself, and i’ve tried to become like other people, but that didn’t really work either. i want to be MORE, but it’s so hard sometimes, y’know?
if you feel that way, i hope you know ,and remember always, YOU ARE STRONG. existing can be exhausting, in any capacity, and you should give yourself grace for that. be kind to yourself!
Oct 31, 2024
I’m very open with the fact that I was in years of intense therapy. I still get tune ups if I need it. I do believe we all have core wounds we’re constantly working on. I also think I’ve grown to be a very healthy person.
I have deep, deep father wounds that are never going to fully heal. I’ve worked on it, and they’re not bothersome most of the time. I recognize when it’s triggered and work through it. I just realize I’m going to probably live with it forever, the hope is that it gets smaller and smaller.
I have a history of abusive relationships that I’ve worked really hard to heal from. Stuff from that typically only comes up during conflict, but I’m aware of it and work on it. Thankfully it comes up with people who love me and that has been so healing.
Going from hyper independence to interdependence and learning to be in process with others has been.. work. But worth it.
I’ve always been incredibly hard on myself if I hurt people- it’s always unintentional, but how dare I be a human who makes mistakes!! I still have to be extra kind to myself and talk myself off the ledge when this comes up. Funny that I found this meme just today lol
Jul 18, 2024
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i don’t know if this is just my phone or not but everything on this app has a multi-second delay between tapping and whatever is supposed to happen happening. sometimes it doesn’t happen at all and i have to tap multiple times to so much as open a menu. love this app but it can be a little infuriating to use at times
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10/10 one of my favorite albums of all time. windingly cryptic, poetic, and beautifully opaque in terms of both sound and lyrics. feels like a fairy tale. vinyl pressing i got sounds gorgeous too
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