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Took my date to see the film cause it was playing for the 40th anniversary.
I hadn’t seen it in a good 5 years, so it was like watching it with a fresh pair of eyes.
I always remembered the scene where the Kid, already ripe with inner turmoil, walks in on his father’s attempted suicide.
What I didn’t remember was the scene that comes after, where the Kid succumbs to the torment that he’s endured, haunted by the sight of his father’s outline with the gun in chalk, the noise of his previous shouting and the fatal gunshot ringing in his ears, a unkempt rope peering out at the edge of the room, a brief flash of the Kid’s own lifeless body hanging from the ceiling, a potential oncoming fate…..he finally breaks down under all the pressure and tears up the room. He finds his father’s sheet music in the ensuing rubble, and regains his inspiration, managing to assemble the title track based off the demo tape that Wendy and Lisa put together.
I was quite disturbed by the scene in the theater, but managed to get through it. Talked to a friend on the phone the day after and finally broke down crying. It’s not one of those things that you’re proud of relating to, but you’re glad it’s there for support. I’m grateful I never went through with taking my life, I’m grateful my closest friends never went through with taking their lives. I’m grateful that we’re still here despite all the bullshit. It’s a beautiful thing to be alive and prospering on this divinely-created planet.
I’ve been in that room before, I’ve been on the edge of death, I’ve heard those deafening voices, I’ve seen myself hanging from that ceiling, I’ve had those psycho crash outs, lost friends, burned bridges and somehow wound up with a better life in the process.
I’ve never understood how people refer to the film as a guilty pleasure or a so-bad-it’s-good experience. The bizarre mystic nature of it all somehow manages to feel more grounded to me by the day. Prince and Albert Magnoli assembled a work of sheer primal genius.
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saw it on sunday and im still thinking about it multiple times a day; a dissociative psychedelic suburban nightmare that is also incredibly focused in its delivery of a very important message. made me so incredibly emotional. really unique cinematography as well and i love how the soundtrack is like an alternate-universe 90s teen movie soundtrack made by contemporary artists.
May 15, 2024
i’m not sure if the brutalist was actually as good as it felt- but i’m a sucker for an experience, and seeing a movie in 70mm at the music box with my very own mr.movies (josh), was a soul salve I didn’t know I needed.
and WOWEE KAWZOWEEE what a freaking credit sequence?? the SYNTHS? the BOLD TYPOGRAPHY? i’ve been playing la bionda’s “one for you, one for me” every day since.
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from Fire Walk with Me. it got stuck in my brain for weeks with a feeling of uncomfort; but that movie, that music…
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I don’t understand how yall end up at these random ass places you do, come across the books on ancient polyrhythmic science or whatever you read, listen to those indescribably niche tracks I’ve never heard of before or since, or host art installations from your makeshift garage, but I love hearing about every little bit of it, beyond fascinating to know all your stories and passions and the things that occupy ya mind and keep you alive. It’s like a big canvas comprised of different jagged pieces that all add up to a whole.
I’ve only been on the app for two weeks or so and it’s already partly helped me heal from a lotta past grief and pain so I’m grateful to interact with yall.
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It’s cool to learn new things, it’s cool to develop some new skills. It’s cool to be able to access a whole bunch of data and knowledge at your fingertips.
Don’t let some guy on a podcast become your father figure or give you financial advice or try to anoint you with another monolithic identity not too dissimilar from the one you vowed to leave behind.
Life doesn’t get any better, but YOU do.
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