picking dead skin off the bottom of my ears, pulling my cuticles up, popping pimples, really pushing your nails into your hand lines, destroying scabs, etc… my body may be kind of bloody and and dysfunctional but it’s smooth and that’s what matters
scarred, wrinkly, with hyperpigmentation. i love doing things with my hands.
on a side note, may i just say hm i love layering nail polish because it creates textures from the stuff it touches and i can pick it and still look cool.
there is something so poetic about tearing yourself apart over and over and your skin becoming stronger each time, like a small shield made out of your cells with which your body says: i am here and i don't want you to hurt. the one on my left heel reminds me of all the hikes i've done and the one on my right hand, where knives rub against my soft skin, reminds me of all the fulfilling meals i've made. now, walking or dicing doesn't hurt anymore. i'm being kept safe.
if you think you’re the smartest person in your friend group you’re weird and annoying. the best friendships come out of mutual awe and respectability. be friends with people who make you want to know more things.
i will never be in a situationship in the same way i will never be in the land of oz--it's just not real. i think using the word doesn't let you self-reflect in a way that is truly helpful. i was telling my friend about the awkwardness of seeing an exhook up in a relationship bc i thought we had mutual feelings and she said "oh your exsituationship" and i thought (for the first time) no, we had clear boundaries i just got my hopes up. my point is that instead of using situationship as a catch-all for not quite dating or wtv failed prospect, take it as a moment to reflect on what exactly went wrong. idk if this is profound or not
i’m averaging 14,000 steps a day for the past year, why? i walk everywhere. at one point i was averaging 16,000 (this is my flex). you get to explore a city and now when people ask me for directions i can actually tell them bc i’ve gotten really good at knowing where i am. if it takes less than an hour for me to walk from a to b, i will walk. if i have enough time i’ll walk 2+ hours just to see someone. just put on a good playlist/pod and go go go!!