I’ve thought about this waaaaay too much. at the end of my movie, im old, completely alone, and dying of lung cancer. in the hospital, my heart flatlines. The nurse has left the room, busy with other patients. No one notices I’ve died. This song starts playing. the credits start rolling over the following scene: cut to me on a vast, empty road somewhere in rural idaho. a border collie leads me down the vacant road. she runs back and forth across the road, barking at me, telling me to keep following her. we are utterly free. no one but the two of us. i smile.
Jul 19, 2024

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i was listening to this song on soundcloud and reading the comments and one of them said ā€˜god i want this to be played at my funeral’. since then i haven’t felt the same whenever i listen to it. maybe it’s because the lyrics are what i’m scared the end will be like, or because it’s slow enough that i won’t be rushing through all the memories. i wrote a substack post about this. cos i can never shut up lol.
Dec 23, 2024
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You feel like you're a failure And it's enough to make you sick Listened to this song at the end of my RMYC term. In this big van with my crew, knowing that I'll probably never see them all together again like this driving together through the mountains. I was coming to terms with the end of my relationship, grieving that, and anticipating the grief of the end of my term.. knowing I'd have to go back to real life soon.
Jun 25, 2024
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Not necessarily a special place, but the song reminds me of a moment in a place. It’s like 10 pm, I just got out of work. I used to work at this tiny grocery store in a small town. That part of town was quiet, there was no sound. I had my earbuds in blaring this song. It had been a rough week and the repeated chorus of ā€œsad I’m gonna die, hope it’s gonna happen later than I thinkā€ just was comforting, I felt a lot less alone. It was one of few moments where I was aware I was experiencing a moment that I would go on to remember. It was such a bittersweet night. My grandma had just recently passed, I was living in a former friend’s apartment, at my lowest. But that song was there.

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