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i've got an internship which starts in september which i'm super excited about but it's meant i've had to move back with my parents till this time next year. and while i love being back at home, it can be very suffocating cause of the severe loss of agency, plus my core friend group at home is more or less extinct as well as the plans we made for summer. but a smaller circle has come out of it, we see each other once a week which is really lovely and we've been on the arts and crafts grind recently. on the days i don't see them or my other friends, i feel ridiculously adrift. july was like a big sleepwalking episode just a very inert atmosphere so i've decided to make august more memorable, which has been going alright so far. i haven't got a summer job so i've just been spending and now i'm kind of worried about money but like that's a constant worry i guess and just nervous overall about the future in general cause of all the upheaval. not sure which masters to do, if i should even bother etc. some of my friends have moved and are moving abroad for uni or just live pretty far away from me. it's been an ok summer so far but yeah idk.

@tiff

Aug 13, 2024

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