i know i'm so privileged to have a chill wfh job where workload isn't high and no pressure from managers, but i also feel like something within me is dying inside. (i also definitely have undiagnosed adhd as do both my parents lol)
when i DO have to do work, it is so fucking boring and i don't care about any of it. it's just writing up boring reports. so i procrastinate having to do them all the time which leads to a kind of weird low-level ambient stress that hovers over the rest of my life. the job is essentially a dead-end as i will never get promoted. my life goal is to continue writing (i currently write a substack newsletter) and one day have a novel, which technically this job allows me the time/flexibility to work on.... but i can't help wondering if staying in all day on my computer is depriving me of richer life experiences...
don't get me wrong, i read as much as i can at home, call other friends with boring wfh jobs lol and do online courses etc, but idk.... i hate not feeling more agentic over my time. but does anyone ever? i've been offered a 2x a week PT role in a town nearby and it'll pay enough to cover rent but i'd definitely have to hussle for freelance stuff to make-up the difference, and idk if i'm ready to give up my laziness.... but is too much comfortability what life is about? GOD IDK