not a drinker, nor a smoker anymore, but i used to hugely enjoy the way niche media made me feel. role play videos, youtube rabbit holes, and underground (perhaps shitty student-made) short films are just best consumed under the influence of something a little goofy. preferably light, ideally funny, but mostly just a little off kilter.
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Dec 8, 2024
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-Oki's Weird Stories, mostly bringing light to unknown stories, very high quality and well-researched. rec: "The Deadly Basement of a 4chan Doomer" + "How I Infiltrated a Bizarre Conspiracy Cult"
-Leeja Miller, political video essays from the perspective of a female, queer lawyer. rec: "The US Is Ugly. THIS is Why." + "Why Are Americans So Obsessed With Communism??"
-The Right Opinion, mostly deep dives on different pop culture topics, but his trilogy on Onision really does feel like a true crime doc. rec: His Onision series + "The Never-Ending Nightmare Of Nikocado Avocado"
-Wendigoon, does a lot of horror deep dives, sometimes its about fictional media like ARG's but he also does a lot of deep dives into real life crimes. rec: "The Most Disturbing Cult of All Time: The Ant Hill Kids" + "The Story & Footage of LA's Most Infamous Heist Gone Wrong" + "The Cult, Standoff, & Conspiracy of Waco"
-j aubrey, similar to The Right Opinion, but he does do more content on real-world stuff. rec: His Epstein trilogy + "The Depraved World of the Duggers | A Biblical Scandal"
-DonnaIRL, pop culture deep dives with a more psychological perspective (im pretty sure she's a psychologist). rec: "The Cult of David Dobrik: How to Keep a Group Obedient"
-Coffeehouse Crime, i used to really like true crime youtube, but after watching Pinely's video ("The Broken Morality Of True Crime Videos") i became disillusioned with the space. coffeehouse crime is the only channel i feel does it right and respects the victims. rec: "The Tinder Date Murdered By A Cult | The Case of Sydney Loofe"
May 19, 2024
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And other things the YT altgorithm does in middle of the night to snatch you from the jaws of ad-blocked sleep. Everything I know about urban sprawl, buccal fat removal, Sergei Ponomarenko, ulexite, Microsoft interview logic puzzle questions, Klein bottles, Constantinople, IKEA’s 2024 catalogue (10 best new products), the core-ification of everything, the mysteries of the Wallace Line, and deep-sea sharks I learned in a borderline fugue state between the hours of 2 and 4 am, under a strange spell of free association… a spiraling descent into hypnosis by way of information overload… flashes of sound and image that felt like distant cousins of the Ludovico technique… and low key… i will almost certainly go back for more
Jan 30, 2024
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this might be weird, because it seems everyone on this app is incredibly well adjusted, if not just a little odd. i am coming off (i hope) of an almost three week depressive episode, during which i have not run (longest period in two years), watched excessive amounts of (shitty) netflix, and eaten so poorly that i no longer crave vegetables or fruits (this is the most disappointing and surprising). every single thought that i’ve had during this time has been about how it is entirely impossible for me to get out of bed, and that i will never be myself again. i’ve gained an impressive amount of weight, so much so that i hope to god i’m just being overly critical of myself. my skin has dried out, my floors are dusty, and i have more laundry to do than i feel is humanly possible. these past few weeks, my brain has been a miserable place to be.
but today, i got up. i went to learn how to make couscous at a friend’s house, watched as she manned the burners with cartoonish dexterity. hot water rippled into pots, spices flashed in the air, fresh vegetables perfumed the kitchen. we cooked, ate, and hung out with her family until i had to go home and clean for a friend coming in from out of town. it was lovely and cloudy on the walk home. i always miss the sky when i bedrot, and try to at least make it to my roof for sunset and stick my head out the window for sunrise. when i got home, i sat for a little while holding my cat before working. does anyone else do this to try and regulate their mood? i then washed dishes, fixed my broken washing machine, and scrubbed floors until the friend arrived. it’s nice to have a clean house. everyone knows it, so how is it so bloody hard to keep up?
tonight, i went for a walk. i wanted to run, but didn’t intend or expect to get far. i put on a quick one before the eternal worm devours connecticut on repeat. starting slow, feeling the cold. frosty air fogged my glasses. after half a mile, endorphines began to flood my mind. things seemed possible. i could keep running, and, by extension, i could get myself out of this bedrotting cycle. i just kept running, slowly. a mile. keep going. slowly. i usually turn around at 1.5 to make a rough 5k, but i hit 1.75 and wanted to keep on. it was 2 before i decided to turn around. don’t stop. keep going. feel the cold. feel the sweat in your hands, think about the fog that has settled over the town and it’s ugly white lights. i just kept going, trying to push myself to each next landmark. i ended up doing four miles without stopping, something not unheard of, but certainly an achievement for me.
i understand that this might seem stupid and indulgent. but i just want it to be here. i need to mark it down, write it out, prove that i can get better. i can pull myself out of these doldrums. and anyone can. it’s trite and its true. dishes, laundry, and taxes never end, but we do them because we have to. because it’s pleasant to have clean hair and sunlight on your skin. brushed teeth and charged batteries. these responsibilities also help make us feel good. i know this period of inactivity and neglect is not going to be easy to move past, but i will. because i want to feel good. so, even though it seems stupid sometimes, i am going to go on a run tomorrow. i will wash my face and eat some protein. one day at a time, i will get better. my dms are open for anyone struggling or anyone who just wants to talk ❤️🔥
Oct 25, 2024
don’t know if everyone has heard of this and it’s very old news and i should be ashamed. but i found it about ten years ago, and it still my heart. it’s just an anthology of niche emotional experiences from this artist who grew up in switzerland. he collected his made-up terms into a dictionary and published it. it sparked the deepest sense of fancifulness in my preteen heart. i’ve carried certain terms with me to this day, and often return to peruse the words i love so much. one of my proudest moments was, after sharing it with a friend, sending him some of my own inspired by it. he thought they were real words and definitions from it, and i was Very pleased. it’s just fun and cool and neat. be careful to not be in a very longing mood when you go through it.
Sep 29, 2024
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it’s weird, but my mom has told me about this senior bingo night that she’s started going to. she looks forward to it and tells me how fun it is to hang out with them. i feel like joining a chess club or knitting circle or fucking bridge group would have been so fun as a younger person. it doesn’t really matter the age of the people as long as you’re embraced and cherished in some way. is there any forum for you to look for local clubs? also the gym. also volunteering???? it’s actually the best kept secret that folks who volunteer are compulsorily interesting. but western society is so individualist, i understand entirely that it can feel like beside school, there’s no place for you in the world. i truly hope you find somewhere that people appreciate your presence.
Sep 28, 2024