to me itās always been kind of a sad song but itās also resoundingly hopeful
itās not been the best year but itās not been the worst, you know how it is- life kind of just happens.
i of course like the part :: ādonāt cryā¦ donāt raise your eyeā¦ itās only teenage wastelandā
i graduate this spring and thatās obviously a big milestone. being in high school is kind of uniquely miserable and beautiful at the same time. iām glad to move on but itās bittersweet
iām trying to stay in the present while also remembering that this is really āteenage wastelandā i.e: slums of adolescence.. what feels big now wonāt ever matter again.
things might feel empty and really suck, but you gotta keep moving forward. i guess thatās what i learned this year.
long rant over now š§āāļø
Dec 31, 2024
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In 2024, I experienced grief in all of its stages. Fundamentally it changed me - for better or worse? Iām working on that with my therapist.
I found myself listening to this song *a lot* throughout the year. Maybe it was the vulnerable and relatable lyrics mashed up with a uplifting melody, but something about the final linesā¦
*āIt's that little souvenir of a colorful year
Which makes me smile insideā*
ā¦ always got to me. Hopeful, might be the feeling. Especially since itās the only point in the song that she doesnāt reference it as a terrible year. To me it felt like she wanted autonomy over how she wanted her song, her story on the year to end. She defines it, rather than it defines her.
You canāt control when grief happens to you, but you can control how you decide to navigate through it. Maybe, just maybe, I could look back at my grief and let it go.
Jan 22, 2025
While the song is mostly about interpersonal relationships, adulthood, spiritual uncertainty and the inevitable suffering that comes with being in a relationship, I think about the lines "our disease is the same one as the trees, unaware that they've been living in a forest" a lot... but in a different context.
So, storytime:
I moved to London in September last year to study for my Master's degree. I came here alone without any friends or family.
I am usually very introverted irl. I spend most of my time reading books and listening to music all day instead of going to random pubs and talking to people for no reason.
The art of social-skydiving scares me and I find it very hard to approach and talk to people even if it's just telling the stranger sat next to me on the bus that I like their earrings. Since I spend most of my time indoors by myself, I haven't been able to make a lot of friends. Only maybe two people that I can think of and that I can trust my life with but we don't really hang out with each other cause they have very busy lives of their own and live far away from each other.
Having lived in random small towns in India for most of my life, I'm used to an environment where life is slow, everyone knows each other's names and have a stronger sense of community. I even walk very slowly and daydream quite a bit and Iām the type to stop and smell the roses kind.
A friend of mine told me before I moved here that people often feel the loneliest in the biggest of cities and I think that is somewhat true. Everything and everyone moves so quickly here. Everyone seems to be in a constant rush, trying to get into the nearest tube carriage before the doors close, go to their next business meeting or hurry to buy groceries. Moving here alone and spending most of my time studying indoors, loneliness and social isolation hit me like a brick in my face in a way I wasn't prepared for.
That's why I'm so grateful I found this website earlier this year where I got to meet and connect with so many beautiful and amazing people like mouse tiff marxinista r1ana caffy and dagny irl.
The song lyrics remind me that while all of us are here, existing and breathing the same air, we sometimes feel super-isolated and lonely and not able to really connect with people on a deeper, more meaningful level but we're all on our own individual journeys living, learning and growing together whilst being completely unaware of the suffering of the person right next to us might be going through.
Be kind to people y'all š«¶
Dec 21, 2024
You feel like you're a failure
And it's enough to make you sick
Listened to this song at the end of my RMYC term. In this big van with my crew, knowing that I'll probably never see them all together again like this driving together through the mountains. I was coming to terms with the end of my relationship, grieving that, and anticipating the grief of the end of my term.. knowing I'd have to go back to real life soon.
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itās stupid and perfect and lowkey one of the greatest movies of all time. itās fun !! itās california! weāre surfing and skydiving and robbing banks! what more can you ask for!!
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bike with friends, invent something new, grow flowers, enjoy some reeses pieces, try not to get captured by the government.. stuff like that!
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i have 9 out right now and in no world am i finishing all 9 of them (including a 500 page oral history of the soviet union and like a 550 page one about the manson murders). but i really love checking books out, really satisfies some sort of innate consumer impulse in me. and i love having books around me.
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