i have tendencies toward addiction and i often form habits that are pretty destructive with it, but about two months ago, i started walking and listening to audiobooks and just totally clearing my mind, and itās a new, actually helpful addiction. i go on at least two two-mile walks a day, sometimes further if i have time. responding to my sensory-seeking urges by pounding the pavement has actually been life-changing.
i think we elevate and laud the āhardā physical activities like going to the gym, running, pilates, etc., but iāve always been really solitary when working out, running makes me sick to my stomach, and pilates and other group fitness classes are too expensive. additionally, walking has been proven to be just as good for you as running and less harsh on your joints. i canāt believe i finally found something thatās 100 percent free and so fucking simple to calm the buzzing under my skin and that fiery need to feel something, and itās something i learned to do before i was a year old. for once, i feel comfortable in my own head.