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I’ve been having a hard time lately and I really wanted to abandon the day but instead I’m saying hello to the bus driver with pink puffy eyes I’m letting tears fall freely onto the park bench I’m staring despondently out the sandwich shop window  It’s not about romanticizing your sadness. It’s actually not about you at all. It’s about the unusually colored pigeon and the dad and son throwing a football while they walk down the street and hearing Chaka Khan’s My Love is Alive blaring from a modded 2003 Honda civic that will, even if it’s just briefly, pull you out of the cave. Allow your feelings to interact with the world. Find reminders of what life was, is, and can be beyond and within these feelings.  Go for a walk, enjoy the taste of your salty tears, and when you’re ready, lay down in the grass until you’re itchy enough to remember there are sensations other than this dull ache. Then buy yourself an impracticality large bottle of water. Maybe go see a movie by yourself. 
May 4, 2024

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I always try and focus on the little things a have control over. I know that may be easier said than done as I also struggle with getting out of sad moods. I love my friends because I can talk to them about this or just bullshit about stuff and I feel seen and loved. sometimes that’s enough. I have also been going on walks recently even though the weather is lame. listening to the wind somehow seems to ground me. hope this helps❀❀
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these past few days, I have dragged my tired carcass into the sun and plopped myself into the nearest body of water. I’m lucky — I live near to a lot of accessible points of natural release, both in sand and in seaweed paper. in recognition of my privilege, let me also acknowledge my humble suffering. i have lived in tiring grey coals of concrete and felt the abyss of constant chatter and gritty grey tear away at my flesh. i never said it would be easy, moving outside of what you know, but its always worth it. i am sooo depressed from November - Feb
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