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"I like you," he told me on a starry night in Mexico. "And I think we'd be great together. Until we go home."
I went back to my hotel room, too overwhelmed by the idea that a man would be interested in me, even if just for two weeks. I took my phone out on the balcony and listened to Affair with the Moon by Lidia Solomon on repeat.
The whole thing between him and me ended in disaster, but for a brief moment, anything seemed possible, like the beginning of a fairytale. Whenever I'm feeling overwhelmed at night, by big thoughts and bigger feelings, I open my window and listen to Affair with the Moon. And for a brief, melancholic moment, anything will seem possible again.
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I know everyone and their mom likes this song but I don’t know if it’s appreciated enough still… listening to this walking under the streetlights as the stars come out and wondering if this is what the rest of your life is gonna be… he’s reaching out of the sound waves and ripping my heart from my chest…
Feb 20, 2025
I made this because I wanted to remember the full body experience of sweet, uncertain, likely doomed adolescent infatuation. Best listened to while wistfully looking out a window at the rain or while laying on the floor next to someone you’ve been wanting to kiss for years.
May 10, 2024
I love listening to this song even though I don’t understand Chinese. But the angst I feel while listening to this song makes me yearn for an ex/relationship I never had haha.
I don’t know how accurate Google translate is, but here’s the lyrics:
The suit that shouldn't be left to air dry
Compensation for the day I forgot my umbrella
Dripping all the way back home
Reluctant to take it off
You hang on the cement wall like this
As cold as the wall's temperature
I give you my breath, whisper softly
Darling, don't panic
Let's drink a bowl of hot soup together
Just like two people
Ah, how I long
For you to learn to love like a liar
Casual, neither here nor there
Consistently lying, not exposing my facade
One more word and I'll fall into the web of your lies
The suit that won't dry
Deserves the punishment of ignoring the forecast
Whispering metaphors behind my back
Echoing in the room
You're nailed into my heart like this
Glowing like a fresh wound
I feel dizzy, words unclear
Is it sorrow or falling in love?
Trying to heal alone
Just like most people
Ah, how I long
For you to imitate a fraud
Romantic words, thoughtful and kind
Disgustingly sweet, imagining our complicity
One more word and I'll shoulder all the blame myself
Looking at the way you look at me
Are you sympathetic? Sympathetic towards my appearance
Unpresentable, what is a person like?
You're better at concealing judgments of others than I am
Aren't you?
Ah, how I long
For you to learn to love like a liar
Casual, neither here nor there
Consistently lying, not exposing my facade
Like we all loved in the pouring rain
May 1, 2024
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I'm a July baby. Growing up, I spent most of my birthdays alone. Some years because my friends had left the country. Some years because I'd left the country. Some years because I had no friends. And with every year passing, the pressure to spend my birthday surrounded by friends and family and to have a good time increased. Every year I felt like a failure when I couldn't make it happen. So I stopped telling people it's my birthday.
But today is my 28th birthday.
Jul 17, 2024
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I hadn't seen my friend since New Year's Eve. Now it was October, her wedding day, and she barely gave me the chance to gush over her gorgeous dress, her makeup, her jewelry.
"You look happier," she said. "Your energy has changed. It's much calmer now. I'm happy for you."
I love her for taking the time out of her special day to notice me like that.
Oct 13, 2024
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"If the two of you are so good together, why don't you make a move?" my friend asked me in a dream about the guy I was ever so slowly falling for. Those words echoed through my mind for months, from the first date till the final breakup.
Jun 14, 2024