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Ever since I quit nicotine I don't deprive myself of a cigarette when I feel like I really need it. So it hits different, because when my emotional state is low all it takes is a cig break to feel like I'm confronting whatever it is that's weighing me down. This system is fool-proof. Sometimes I think I'm low enough for a cigarette then decide I'm not quite sad enough. So when I do smoke it's because I'm crying & absolutely losing it. Because my smoke breaks are spontaneous, I can't quite plan for them, leading to unfinished packs & a plethora of lighters. Funny enough, each lighter coincides with whatever was making me feel awful that day making it a journal of sorts for my feelings. My fav is the "take me with you" lighter because well.. I really related to that when I bought it. There's also something really protagonist-y about walking into a gas station, eyes puffy & tears streaming down your face & asking for a pack of camel menthols ... oh & a swag lighter.
Sep 19, 2024
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I quit smoking maybe a decade ago, and I was having a really hard time. A friend asked, “I wonder what’s underneath that?” And being the little emotional explorer I am that really drove me to give it a fair shot. For me, smoking was a way to suppress all of my emotions. When you think about it, when you are smoking, you are taking nice deep breaths. Very regulating!
When I first quit, I was an emotional mess. It was new to me, and I felt ridiculous, but it passed quickly. I had to learn new ways of emotionally regulating. I also chewed a piece of gum every time I wanted a cigarette. I became sort of addicted to gum for a while, but that also faded.
A big part of smoking for me was that it was an intentional way to cause harm to myself. I knew that it was bad and I liked the way that it felt. I had to do a lot of psychological and emotional work to unlearn that self harming drive. So, mentally I was also telling myself that this was a loving thing for me to do and that I deserved to take care of my body and be healthy.
There’s lots of logical ways to help you quit, but like all addictions there’s an emotional component to it. Discover what that is for you and treat the root issue! Good luck!
Jun 18, 2024
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started buying my own cigs at the start of last year to get through a rough patch. it was me and my marlboro golds against the world back then. was too broke to afford to buy them super regularly so i'd have to ration over weeks. and luckily (not really) my friends also started smoking around the same time so i could bum off them if need be. i've been quitting since i properly started and i haven't bought a pack in a while now. moved onto strictly social smoking but i go out often enough it makes this a tad redundant. i don't desperately fiend for it as much, i could hardly finish the last one i had but god does a drunk cig feel good af.
also as someone who does biomed, your reminder and mine that smoking is really bad for you btw!!! we really need to invent smoking that isn't a health hazard.
Apr 9, 2024
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i finally decided to quit smoking for good this year. however…the one thing holding me back was the wonderful, communal feeling of sharing a cig with strangers outside a bar.
luckily, you can always be the person with the lighter on hand when people need one.
you still experience that nice, warm bonding feeling without actually smoking. plus you’re being of service to others, which deepens the connection <3
Feb 10, 2024
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You really get to feel every feeling possible for a human to feel with this activity- Suspense, excitement, regret (from being a shopaholic), impatience, frustration (when the package suddenly stops tracking) and MORE! Every morning you get to wake up & check the tracker, offering a similar feeling to waiting to get a text from a crush- except it's a message from USPS giving you an update on your package. Wow. There's so many emotions, so many feelings. Then you get to wait for the USPS truck, looking out the window at all the cars rushing by wondering, "Is my package in that vehicle?". I live SO close to my post office so I am in suspense all day as there's hundreds of USPS trucks that drive by & it's such a rush! Then you get to do it all over again when you order something else. I'm currently tracking only one thing (trying to be good this month).
Sep 19, 2024
When I find one I immediately put it into a small mason jar where I also keep clumps of her fur that fall off when she scratches herself & whatever else I find that once belonged to her. When the day comes & we can clone cats, I will be so thankful for this collection because I truly can't live without my kitty.
Sep 19, 2024
I found this at a garage sale for twenty-five cents! Worth every penny. I can play Sudoku all the time & with a groovy orange stylus. You can choose different levels of difficulty & the sound effects are next level. It also just looks so cool? Only bad thing is it's hard to play it outside because of the screen.
Sep 19, 2024