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Thereâs an indescribable beauty to this song, âAlisonâ, by Slowdive. Oh, how I wish I could put into words how this song makes me feel. When I first stumbled upon it, and the whole Souvlaki album it belongs to, I was quite lonely. I had friends, but most of my friends had someone in their lives. Someone who was more important to them than me. I was nobodyâs priority. Thatâs how it felt, at least. I was longing to be loved. To be cared for. And that is exactly what Neil Halsteadâs vocals on this song bring forth, a feeling of longing, of desperation. He longs for someone so desperately, that heâll do anything as long as he gets to be with her. He will do whatever it takes so as not to be alone anymore.Â
âAlison, Iâll drink your wine /
Iâll wear your clothes when weâre both highâ
Sheâs like an addiction, and he is addicted to her and anything sheâll ask of him. At the time, I would have given anything to overcome the loneliness that overwhelmed my everyday life. A girl could give me the smallest amount of attention, and I would spiral into a rabbit hole of highly unlikely fantasies. Even if I knew they werenât at all right for me, I made up scenarios in my mind of what it would be like to be with them. For a moment, I would actually feel less lonely.
ââAlisonâ, I said, âWeâre sinkingâ /
Thereâs nothing here but thatâs okayâ
As a soaring guitar fades in and the chorus takes off, I daydream about what could, but probably never will be, and never should. Iâm not ready. I have to wait. She has to be somewhere. Softly, carefully, I can already hear her, through Rachel Goswellâs gorgeous echoing vocals, somewhere in space. I just have to wait.
âI guess sheâs out there somewhereâŠâ
She was.
Jul 19, 2024
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I went back to my hotel room, too overwhelmed by the idea that a man would be interested in me, even if just for two weeks. I took my phone out on the balcony and listened to Affair with the Moon by Lidia Solomon on repeat.
The whole thing between him and me ended in disaster, but for a brief moment, anything seemed possible, like the beginning of a fairytale. Whenever I'm feeling overwhelmed at night, by big thoughts and bigger feelings, I open my window and listen to Affair with the Moon. And for a brief, melancholic moment, anything will seem possible again.
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I heard a lot of love songs yesterday, or some mixes at least interpreting love and Valentineâs Day and the like. This came on in the car and brought tears to my eyes. Love can be thick and sweeping, and surviving so much. Sometimes itâs like youâre alone in it all unless you remember to look at each other and live out the end of this world together.
I attached a yt video because the comments always get me. Double recommend reading through them while listening.
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The prelude sounds like longing. Yearning for love to find you and to live that desire to itâs fullest exaltation.
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Just a list of my all time favourite songs that is under constant construction. Once in a while I very slowly try to put them in order.
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First and foremost, âSmalltown Boyâ is a queer anthem. An anthem about a young man who knows that he will never be accepted for who he is by the people around him. Therefore, he has no choice but to move away and leave the place where he grew up. There is no life for him there, no future. He runs away, as it is the only hope he has of finding some form of acceptance. Some form of freedom.
While the lyrics tell this heartbreaking story, it feels like the music is used to portray that feeling of newfound freedom. Melancholy still shines through, and it has to. But happiness and hope are carefully showing their faces. For at least in this moment, we get to be ourselves, unapologetically. And we deserve to be.
Maybe that is why âSmalltown Boyâ is so universally loved. It evokes a feeling that is universally loved. It allows us to feel hopeful, to feel loved, and to feel free. It is an invitation to be who you want to be. To explore these feelings with the people we love around us while dancing and singing along to this song, is to realise that we must hold on tightly to these ideals. Acceptance is the key to freedom.
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